Eminem Didn’t Struggle With Drug Addiction Until He Became Famous

Eminem Didn’t Struggle With Drug Addiction Until He Became Famous

Eminem has opened up about his struggles with addiction and fame in a new essay.

In an article published Wednesday by XXL Mag, rapper Slim Shady shared his experience with addiction at the height of his fame.

“My addiction didn’t start early in my life. We were drinking 40-ounces of liquor on the porch and fighting over rapping,” the 49-year-old star recalls of the making of The Slim Shady LP. “My drug use started early on in that first album.”

“I didn’t do hard drugs until I became famous. I was experimenting. I hadn’t found a drug of choice yet. Back then, when we went on tour, we were given free drugs.”

He later explained that when he was taking drugs on tour, he maintained the illusion of control over his addiction, but that afterwards the veil fell away.

“I managed to hold it together for a while. Then I figured I loved this shit too much and didn’t know how to stop,” he wrote. “I managed to downplay my addiction and hide it for a while until it got really bad… I was doing Vicodin, Valium, and alcohol.”

Between the creation of The Marshall Mathers LP in 2000 and Encore in 2004, Eminem recalls that he “kind of fell into oblivion and didn’t explain why he left.”

He summed up: “I don’t know how I can still be here.”

Billboard reports that Eminem has been sober for 13 years.